Because I don't receive any responses to my postings, I'm going to try something different. As most of you know, I am a poet (inspiring anyway) and I might as well use this as a forum for feedback as well as a place to post my feelings and thoughts. The poetry is just a different way of expressing them.

Here's the latest poem I'm working on.

<b\><u\>Cycles</u></b>

I’m just a kid, alone on the playground,
swinging on the swings. As I go back and forth
the toes of my Velcro sneakers are scraping
gravel, but never leave the ground.
My hands grip the chains securely
holding the hard plastic, u-shaped seat
that by now has left marks on my legs.

My little blond head is hanging, my eyes searching
amongst the gray-brown gravel for a gem.

Other kids are playing on the dome or the slide,
in groups or couples and I am dangling.

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What do you think? Feedback?

Updates:

This past week went well. The paper came together, granted it was a bit short but at least it reads well and is pleasing to the eye. And! The ads were at least half of the written content. That's exciting (I know I'm a dork). I was very proud of my staff this week even though there were some hectic moments, mainly on Wednesday. Over all though, it was good.

Even though the girl called off what thing we did have at least she's talking to me again and not avoiding me. I think I liked her more than I let on, even to the point of fooling myself, but oh well. Again, at least she's not feeling guilty or whatnot anymore so she's talking to me and 'flirting' again. It's not like it's a switch I can just turn off. I usually have a crush for awhile, but I know the lines anyway. So now I have to be professional and not step over any boundaries, and I sometimes get too zealous and do that. A weakness of mine no doubt.

Random poetry...

<b\>After Burn</b>

I met you
and hated you.
You were aggravating
and opinionated.

Then you changed
or I did.

You were fiery
as a sprite
fearsome
and bold.

And
as is my nature
I tried too hard
and you were
gone.

Update:

Kairi is back and i'm very much relieved. Wanna know how he came back? Yeah, he definitely fell out of a tree onto my roof, ran over the pitch and jumped down to the ground. He's one <u\>resiliant</u> fucker. But right now he's sleeping in my lap and i feel better.

not-so-shit list, but still depressing...

1. The girl is mad at me for my other friends, and apparently i'm an inconsiderate bastard. Can't seem to do anything right by that girl.
2. i now have heat, but i felt stupid because the oil guy came by to prep my furnace which is so simple a retarded monkey could do it. So i just stood there looking at my furnace aparently with an IQ lower than that of said retarded monkey.
3. Still have an expired license.
4. My car miraculously fixed itself. No, that was a lie.
5. Not valentines day anymore (still see line item one).

Let me start this rant about the one thing that I am most saddened by. My only companion in the entire world, who has been with me through hell and back, my cat Kairi, ran away last night has yet to be seen. This may seem weird for a 'guy' to be saying this, but he was the only one for awhile. Granted he can't speak to me per se, but he did talk to me, did listen when i spoke to him, and always wanted to be around me, creating a bond between us that only a human and a pet can have.

i miss him deeply.

And here's the rest of the shit list in order of shittiest....

1. I think I did something last night to piss off the girl
I like, which ended in her being mean to me, and me feeling
like shit for doing this thing that I'm unaware of.
2. I have no oil and therefore no heat.
3. The oil company can't give me a time for when they'll be
able to deliver oil, because well, hell, they're <b\>stupid</b>.
Which means I sit in a freezing house until they get here.
4. My license is expired.
5. Ironicly, my car is broken.
6. It's valentines day (see line item one).